I've never been particularly good with reports, and for full ones please see other filkers' journals - they had a day more, and probably saw more of the con in general, too.

I kept alternating between my bed and the music hall mostly, missing some great performances from Dave Weingart for example. But what can you do when you're ill, and you don't want to be a complete wreck by Sunday when you've got your own set to play.

Still, I managed to see and hear many things and take some photos :-)

( This Way Please... )

I must be a weird person, because instead of getting more confident about myself as far as singing in public is concerned, I think I might be getting even more nervous and quiet.

For the last year or so, I've felt far more comfortable just sitting and listning in a circle or housefilk instead of performing myself. Including being incredibly anxious about being asked to sing something - this goes as far as me considering not attending a circle at all.

It's not that I don't like singing - I love it. And I love my guitar. But when I'm in a group of so many talented people with their wonderful voices and great songs I deeply feel that my songs are really unnecessary. And that the other people are far more a pleasure to listen to. This is not a bitter "please say you like me" statement, its more of an explanation as to why I rarely push myself into the front and present my songs.

I guess the only reason why I actually get on stage is because I've been told that the songs are neat and because they have been beautifully arranged (not by me ;-) ).

When I was at the housefilk in London at some point I was asked to sing another song, but I just couldn't pick one. The ones I write are, in all honesty, not that good. (Sometimes, when I do sing one I find myself thinking by the second verse that this must be so terribly boring for everybody and I ponder whether I should just stop and say "The rest of the song is pretty much like this.") And I didn't want to butcher someone else's song. So I kind of let the request fall into oblivion. It's not nice, but I honestly did not know what to sing.

So, hee. Maybe I'll just sneak into the cicles at this year's FilkCONtinental where no one will find me :-p

Okay, so this is where I try to write a con report. I just got up after ten hours of sleep and hope my brain will cooperate more today than it did yesterday.

( Ramblings This Way... )

( Our Spot )

( On With The Rambling )

All in all – thank you all for a marvellous time!

( something on making new friends )

( CDs I bought and will buy )

Okay, that’s it from me folks – all I can think about right now. Typing this down took me almost three hours... whoa :-p

...and so exhausted I can't even type anymore (seriously, this here is taking me ages).

Am tired beyond measure, but I did have a blast. More later.

...we're off to FilkCONtinental. See you on Tuesday! (And some of you later)

...only 300 more days til FilkCon 2006! *sigh*

So apparently you can't decide on what should be my new username either. Meaning I'll probably will have to wait til I come across teh-ultimate-nick-that's-not-yet-taken ... ;O)

Even more random but does anyone know a website/archive where I can find good reference photos for human proportions/poses? (Poses would be better). I wanna draw something for ansothehobbit but I can't find a good picture I might use as reference.

Sent lisande the finished first 10 chapters of my NaNoWriMo novel today because she asked for it. *trembles & awaits verdict* And we wrote another silly filk. Seriously, it appears everytime we decide to write song together it ends up being completely silly and pointless :O)

The Highway Man... such a brilliant song. I wish I had Mich's & Marilisa's version on CD though, it's just stunning. I'm so happy I asked them to sing it in the open circle. I love Marilisa's voice. (And her Marvolo Lullaby had me run shivers down my spine...)

/random

ETA: I'm so sappy and mushy today, I can't listen to Filk without having a big lump in my throat and the urge to burst into tears. tia_thereal when you said Filk is the music of emotions, you were so right...

Since I can't be bothered to do a full recap (and because other people have done it so much better than me already), I'll only post photos of the last two conventions I went to...including oh so sophisticated comments of mine (with LOADS of typos) Consider yourself warned :o)

( FILKCONTINENTAL 2005 )

( RING*CON 2005 )

...this was one great weekend.

I don't actually know what to say besides that it was absolutely great.