I'm so tired ... and I dunno why. *ponders*

Just got home... cause ... well that's the hard one to explain... *lol* It was Patrick's wife's birthday (her name is Steffi, but to distinguish between me and her we call her Steffi-Steffi *lol*)... now, Patrick is my father's Godson, Patrick's mother however is my brother's Godmother, plus Patrick's father and my father have been best friends for over 40 years now. Oh and yes ... Laura is Patrick's sister. *lol* Everybody confused now? Good *wink* Anyway, we had a great time there ... even though I accidently broke one of Steffi-Steffi's crystal glases... how clumsy can you be? :o( *hides*

My aunt told me yesterday, that during the past three years I've become acompletely different person... I didn't ask here further about it cause we were surrounded by lots of people (after all we were on a family affair), but I DO hope she meant it in a positive way. There are some people who've told me in the past that I've changed so much, become more relaxed and optimistic and ... cheerful somehow. I hope that's true, I mean I hope that people notice that, cause it's JUST what I feel like. I've never felt so comfortable and pleased with myself and my life before. Funny that it all began with not having to see my mother anymore. It's a completely new experience to me to wake up and find, that everything's the way it should be... it's so new to me I sometimes cannot believe it's happening. Not saying that I have an extremely blessed life to ... maybe other people's standardss (though I do feel like I have)... but... I have friends who accept me the way I am. I'm not under this pressure anymore. I like being at uni. I've become more self confident. I want to try out more things. I love my family. I appreciate it all so much ... really. *sighs*

Then my aunt told me that my OTHER aunt told her two years ago "Well you can't call Steffi exactly pretty..." That pisses me off, really. Well, I know I'm not pretty, so it's not the message that bothers me but the fact that the same aunt keeps telling me the exact opposite! Wow, someone's a real bootlicker in my family, non? *growls*

Anyway... date for viewing of Harry Potter III finally set ... June 30th. Expect a LONG review then *wink*