Oh, god. I didn't expect this. I thought it's gonna be a cute story where Dean's sick, Daddy tried to take him to the hospital, but Dean didn't want to so he hide somewhere, and Sam helping him hide all cute and wide eyes with squeaky voice said 'Hurry Dean, Daddy's coming', but Daddy find him anyway, and he has to persuade Dean with Candy or something to come out.
Yeah, that's it. *cough*

But this one is an angst!

(Dean was crying silently, his face pressed against John's chest with John's hand at the back of his son's head. Dean was incredibly brave, probably more than John was, and determined to bear all pain in silence.)

Thank you for writing this. I'm kinda fed up with Johns that didn't hold Dean.

(There'd been this boy at school, Peter, and he'd been ill and then one day he'd stayed away and the teacher had said he'd gone to see the doctor and nobody had ever seen him again. Some of the kids at school said that the doctor had sent Peter to a hospital and the hospital had kept Peter. Dean's heartbeat doubled. He couldn't go to the doctor. He didn't want to be taken away from Dad and Sammy.)

Are you sure Dean was 8 years old? Shouldn't he be smaller? You know, to believe such a story.

(Dean sobbed. “You don't need to give me away, Daddy.” )

No, Dean! No body is gonna give you away! *cried*

(Dean coughed like he was going to throw up his insides only the coughs got stuck in his lungs, lungs that seemed to be filled with something, and then, Dean's eyes rolled backwards and he went very, very still. John screamed.)

Noooo! *screamed too*

Oh, you made me cry a lot. And happy too, cause it's angstyDean vs carringJohn. I LOVE this pairing. I just wish there were some touches and caresses by John when Dean awoke.

(You knew you'd fucked up when you were making promises to yourself that everything would be better from now on, that you'd pay more attention and listen well and be there for your kids, knowing that you'd break those promises sooner rather than later. Too much had happened, too much that could not be undone and John knew that even if he meant every single word now, he'd still be out there hunting ghosts tomorrow instead of being home with his boys.)

Oh now you ruined it. John shouldn't 'know' he'd break those promises. It ruined his 'good father' moment. He should've just 'thought' that he 'might' break the promises. I mean, that's just ridiculous. Promised something that you know you're gonna break.