How do you German/ other by rights non-English speaker do it? How do you write fanfiction in a language that isn't yours and even claim it comes easier to you than writing in your mothertongue? And how do you make it it turns out good?

I've tried. I've failed. Pretty pathetic considering I do British Studies at university. I thought by time I'd get better but it seems my self-confidence only got worse with each wording I discovered I didn't know. It's driving me insane when I don't know a word or just don't know how to word something because I'm sure the phrase can't be translated into English word for word. How can anyone do that and not go insane?

And it's not even like I don't read English books or don't watch English films - I do that all the time. Almost literally. Frustrating, really.

/rant

*returns to German fic that MIGHT be translated into English at one point if I ever find the courage to do so*

ETA: Forgot to say - I practise a LOT. Seriously. I know practise supposedly makes perfect but I can't see any improvement.

ETA 2: Ooops, I think I worded that wrongly. Now, usually I never translate stories but write them in English from the start. I also think in English then. The translation mentioned above sort of would be an attempt since nothing else seems to work...